Thursday

What's Inside of Me?

Created, manifested, edited, and rearranged
my life story
to try to fit
what others said I should become!

Thought about a butcher, a baker and a candlestick maker
from a storybook of long ago.

Heard someone say a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher, and an athlete
I knew that wasn't for me.

So I went to God to confirm my identity,
my destiny
meanwhile the world says
"you can't be rich."

So I kept my dream under lock and key for awhile
as I pursued what man said was best for me.

Told me my success was measured by dollars and cents
wouldn't ackowledge me as an expert without letters
didn't think much of me when I couldn't drive metal
said I was breaking the rules if I went off course.

Oh there is a river of words within me
streaming out daily
for I cannot rest
until I do my best
until I write my last word
until I give my last breath...

Can't leave it up to God to tell my story
that's why he called me
front page news give God the glory!

My name will be...
My Father I am
the first and the last
oh how they will remember me!

My face on television
the wealthy will speak my name!
My children will call me blessed
for I am highly favored
bought with a price
more than a conqueror
through Christ who strengthens me!

For seeds I have sown for so many years
are sprouting green because of my tears!
The ground beneath me a solid rock I stand
no devil in hell can shake me!

My blessing will be running over
my house will have more room than I need
my car will shine
and someone out there will call me "mine."

Then I will reflect on this day
of how he blessed me with an idea
that sold millions
that delivered thousands
that appointed hundreds
for many are called
but chosen are few.

So I wait...and I wait
as God serves me my plate
and I will feast in the presence of mine enemies.

God will restore what was stolen from me
God will bless me like he did Job
a new day is coming...
"God grant me the serenity..."
I remember the note I posted upon my wall
and the time will come that I will need it!

For the crowds are on their way
the lights will be flashing
the pain of not having enough
will be far gone from my head!

My heart will no longer be heavy
my children won't have to hear "no"
and God, oh yes God...will answer my prayers!

Sunday

Destiny: The Lord will giveth but the Lord will also taketh away!

I told some people before I came back to Pittsburgh what I would be doing and I guess they forgot. I said that I was coming back home to get my life back! There was a lot said behind the statement that I made. For some, they thought I was running from something or someone, in a way I was. Crying, temperamental children in overload is a good enough reason! What about feeling taken advantage of, being lied to, having to digest a past that I felt at times I couldn't escape, and most of all those feelings of not being appreciated let alone loved! Oh yes, I was running!

I didn't say I was coming back to Pittsburgh to play someone's handy-woman -- that's why I went to school to be my own handy-woman as well as get paid decent wages working for someone else. Neither did I say I was coming back home to play babysitter either, if I want to watch children I would on my own time not because someone suggested or told me to,...I think not! I could go back home and watch my own! Lastly, I wasn't coming back to Pittsburgh to change anyone's daily schedule either, if they wanted to make some time for me so be it, if not, my train keeps moving! When you involve yourself with people who know your track record of generosity they expect you to do for them like you have no life, no goals, and no destiny. Which brings me to my point, what is your destiny? Are people taking advantage of you because you don't have your destiny orchestrated. Is it that you are waiting on God for a plan to start walking toward your destiny? Has God already given you a plan but you just don't know what to do with it?

I guess this wouldn't bother me so much if I knew these people had no clue about prayer, God's calling, destiny, and other spiritually related things. But most of the people I have associated myself with over the years know better! They know that when one is attempting to get their life back, what they are really saying is, "I have been called on an assignment to secure my destiny. A destiny that was taken away from me by mistakes I made and other reasons to numerous to count, so move out my way and let me get by, thank you!"

Have you ever tried to get around someone who was in your way? They may have been standing in front of something you needed, maybe they were blocking you from parking, or holding you up with a long conversation even though you told them you had to go several times or more. These obstacles that are set before you, although they may be on the surface well-meaning, hinder you from achieving your dreams, they keep you from your destiny.

As long as I continue on the path that God has called me on, I will be okay, but if I don't, he will take what is at the end of the journey away from me! Why leave a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow if there won't be anyone around to pick it up?

Thursday

Pittsburgh Church: The Millennial Reign Church

I had the opportunity to attend a worship service in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania on Easter Sunday, at The Millennial Reign Church http://www.millennialreign.org/ Pastor Karl Edmonds (of the popular mime duo K&K Mime) gave a high energy, impactful, holy ghost, annointed sermon based on the biblical scriptures found in Matthew 27:62-66! Just as Jesus arose after three days, so will you in whatever situation you are presently facing!

From illness to finances, Pastor Edmonds told the congregation that in three days some of us would have an increase in our monies, others would be signing contracts, and more! Ot came to pass for me! One of the women I attended church with was touched by the pastor and he claimed that God would be blessing her with an increase and that all take notice of this woman! I touched her too, she was my mother! The way I see it, if she was due a significant increase I wanted to claim it for me as well being that I am her child. I am in a situation in my life that I have to literally buy my way out of my current crisis. Everywhere I look everyone is hungry or greedy for more, and the only way I can achieve my own personal dreams is to pray that what was stolen from me will come back to me in a one hundred fold return!

You see, there are people in this world who "play" being a believer, then there are those who just are! Which are you? Do you "play" your faith like a cheating man does his wife? Do you "play" God like you do when you walk by an old friend that you no longer have anything to do with? If this is you, can I tell you tricks are for kids? I think of the scripture in I Corinthians 13:11 which reads, "When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things." King James version.

Written by Nicholl McGuire


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