What Was

Back, back, back
spiritual lack
mind on a stack
churches and all that
not interested--they slack.

Thinking about what was,
Bible collecting dust fuzz.
Thought about Jesus
while riding the bus.

No blessings coming here,
made God tear.

Wouldn't listen to what He had to say,
wouldn't bother to pray.

Thought I knew much,
used people as a crutch.

Then died and died some more,
looking for God to restore,
a broken heart,
a need for a new start.

Sometimes we rise too fast,
rely on human love--it doesn't last.
Then we get trapped in the past.

What was doesn't have to be,
let God open your eyes, so that you can see.

Nicholl McGuire

Destiny: The Lord will giveth but the Lord will also taketh away!

I told some people before I came back to Pittsburgh what I would be doing and I guess they forgot. I said that I was coming back home to get my life back! There was a lot said behind the statement that I made. For some, they thought I was running from something or someone, in a way I was. Crying, temperamental children in overload is a good enough reason! What about feeling taken advantage of, being lied to, having to digest a past that I felt at times I couldn't escape, and most of all those feelings of not being appreciated let alone loved! Oh yes, I was running!

I didn't say I was coming back to Pittsburgh to play someone's handy-woman -- that's why I went to school to be my own handy-woman as well as get paid decent wages working for someone else. Neither did I say I was coming back home to play babysitter either, if I want to watch children I would on my own time not because someone suggested or told me to,...I think not! I could go back home and watch my own! Lastly, I wasn't coming back to Pittsburgh to change anyone's daily schedule either, if they wanted to make some time for me so be it, if not, my train keeps moving! When you involve yourself with people who know your track record of generosity they expect you to do for them like you have no life, no goals, and no destiny. Which brings me to my point, what is your destiny? Are people taking advantage of you because you don't have your destiny orchestrated. Is it that you are waiting on God for a plan to start walking toward your destiny? Has God already given you a plan but you just don't know what to do with it?

I guess this wouldn't bother me so much if I knew these people had no clue about prayer, God's calling, destiny, and other spiritually related things. But most of the people I have associated myself with over the years know better! They know that when one is attempting to get their life back, what they are really saying is, "I have been called on an assignment to secure my destiny. A destiny that was taken away from me by mistakes I made and other reasons to numerous to count, so move out my way and let me get by, thank you!"

Have you ever tried to get around someone who was in your way? They may have been standing in front of something you needed, maybe they were blocking you from parking, or holding you up with a long conversation even though you told them you had to go several times or more. These obstacles that are set before you, although they may be on the surface well-meaning, hinder you from achieving your dreams, they keep you from your destiny.

As long as I continue on the path that God has called me on, I will be okay, but if I don't, he will take what is at the end of the journey away from me! Why leave a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow if there won't be anyone around to pick it up?

When It Happens

When pain comes like a rolling sea
Joy is found and you are free.

When bills are due and money is short
There God is standing in your court.

When trouble knocks on your door
Your old heart He does restore.

When bad news rings your black phone
Let it drop, here catch a dial tone.

When there is no comfy car
That’s okay the bus ain’t far.

When the laptop is in the shop
You’ll still make it to the top.

When he has gone and left the house
Forget about the ingrate louse.

When mom is not feeling her best
Remind her that it’s just a test.

When bad dad is stinkin' drunk
Don’t let him get you in a funk.

When your looking for a mate
Pray for love it's not too late.

When the children fight and whine
Call for help, go out and dine.

When time is sinking like quicksand
God is there to lend a hand.

Offended

Holding a gun to your head,
read the Bible
do what it says.
You know I haven't treated you this way.
It's all in your head.

Conversations about Jesus.
Not permitted.
Don’t force your beliefs on me
you say.
Whose forcing?

No Time

Knocking on your door
will you open?
The man asleep
the t.v. still on.

Knocking on your door
will you open?
The woman screaming
at her child, his small
hands cover his ears.

Seeking will you find?
The Bible under a pillow
no time to read.

Seeking will you find?
The cross around her neck
and she curses.

Sought and fought
buried six feet deep
now what do you think?

Nicholl McGuire

Godly Forces

Unseen forces
picked up the car and moved it
you won’t see it again
the devil had fled.

Unseen forces
standing behind you they won’t
stab your back
for God has his army.

Unseen forces
surrounding you
they won’t let the enemy
feed on you.

Unseen forces
way above my head
their making a place
for me at home in my bed.

Nicholl McGuire

Separation Between Church and State

Martin drew a line between us
when he told me I talked about
God too much.

Sarah drew a cross between us
when she agreed with me
that God disappeared from the
hearts of many.

Tina didn’t want to hear it
so she walked away.

Stomping Beast

The beast doesn’t give
unless he receives
what is the benefit?
what is the cost?
there are no excuses
there are no reasons
the beast commands
he does not ask
he is enraged
behind his mask
take it all off
let us see your face
but the beast only hides
he knows he’ll be erased.

Fooled Clergy

He doesn’t want the earth’s trash.
He doesn’t want the broken,
tattered, shredded or torn.

He wants you - he wants me.
The leaders all around who play
hide-’n-go-seek.

The self-righteous, proud,
confused and ignorant.

The clergy who pass by
wrapped in covenant.

They can’t see
the cross has blocked their view
and everyone is a devil, of course
not them, but you.

Lying Spirits

Fear of how one will react
Fear of not knowing how to respond
Fear of not getting what you want.

FEAR.

Liar, liar pants on fire.
Sitting on the hot seat.
Can't remember the lie you told.

How did it happen?
When did it happen?
Where were you when it happened?
What did you say?
Who was it on the phone?
Why didn't you handle it?

No accountability for your actions,
blame someone else.
No apologies when the truth comes out,
upset you were found out.
Create another story,
feel guilty.

Someone is always watching.
You will be found out.

Fear no man, says the Lord.
If God before us who can be against us?

Everyone will turn on a liar.